20th May 2009

this is the day where many happenings happen to me...happy, sad, disappoint, embarrassing, hatred, and back to happy.

happy: as usual with my laughs with my girlfriends with all lame jokes..

sad and disappoint: people are now taking advantage on me about everything and i am disappointed because i have put my trust in that person but he took for granted and felt that is very irresponsible.

embarrassing: well it was my Tehsin birthday and it was also street party. my girlfriends and i had celebrated his birthday which is not very grand but bought him a present. i felt so bad that through out our dinner i was really in bad mood..( I am so sorry Tehsin). then we went for street party and Tehsin ask me n Nicole to go dancing with his friends which i am hmm....a noob in it...well Clare and Triny stay at Block D and Nic and i went to the centre to see people dancing..it was quite nice to people dancing with the loud music.lol..then start the embarrassing part where Tehsin saw me and push me to the dance floor many times n i was so noob i could not even dance.oh gosh...i tried to push my way out but then i was block by Tehsin. sigh...he even called his friend Shihan to teach me how to move but i just couldn't do it...so i finally got out of the dance floor and there goes another pull, push and nearly got carried by the guys..ah.....however i got to get out...haha..oh gosh...i need to learn how to dance...maybe to clubbing someday.hehe

happy: ya i was quite happy after that but not really overcome the disapointment. well i have a list of things that i wana get for myself for my 21st birthday...( contact lenses, a big teddy bear where i saw it at mid valley, hmm...wat else...secret recipe cake, a surprise party, a group of my friends which u noe who u r and i really wana see u gals to come and celebrate my bd...ah..the list just goes on n on)..haha..

thats all for today...sigh...miss u gals n u..

What a day!!!!

i was half awake in the morning because i did not get a good night sleep..So i woke up at 7 smt am and went and wash up..I waited for my friend to go to class together.Manage to grab a bun for breakfast and had my vitamins. So went to class and bla bla bla there for like 1 hour then class dismiss. Then hang out with my bunch of friends chit chatting with nobody business about everything including going to kl next week. So had a sit over at CCC (counseling department) and waited till 11am to go to mid valley but then i went at around 12 pm.

we took a taxi to mid valley which cost us RM 40 but it was the quickiest way to get there so that we could come back early. As we reach mid valley 1st stop is the BURGER KING. I had my wonderful meal after ages i have not eaten at BURGER KING. We munch munch through our burger and french fries till around 1smt. Then we start hanging around just walking walking till we find something interesting then only we stop to see...

We were like a lost kid just hanging around from mid valley to gardens then back to mid valley and back to gardens. We even tried dresses which is for fun..hehe...

But when it came to dinner time that is around 5 nearly to six i met Sameer and Ali at pizza hut. So Sameer temp us by asking us to joint him for a movie which is at 6.30pm and i was looking at my watch it shows 6.15pm..so i make a quick walk to the cinema which i do not know where it is and got 3 extra tickets with a different sitting..so make a quick bite at pizza hut and then run back to the cinema. we were like 15 minutes late for the show so who cares of watching advertisement.hehe...So i watch X-men Wolverine the 2nd time.haha...it seems like the movie is damn nice..haha..

After the show we went shopping for baby clothings..Sameer wanted to get something for his baby niece whom is a month old. So i help him choose and i temp him by paying it RM 135 which his budget is only RM 100..haha...well come on..is his only niece..hehe..Later we had so much fun teasing each other on the way back..i was teasing Ali so much of his beard because with that bunch of hair on his chin he looks like OSAMA BIN LADEN!!!!haha....so i scared him with colouring his beard pink colour..haha

Well overall the outing was good but i was kinda dissapointed with someone..before the outing i even make plans with him to meet up with him in mid valley. Is quite some time we meet each other so i just wana meet him after all he just finish his exam and he is FREE...so the plan was suppose to be meeting up with each other at early time but then he gave excuses that he is busy at that time..so i respected his busyness..so after a quite long hour and is going to be evening and i still don meet him at all..so i kept messaging him and still the excuses...how to not bengang..so i control my anger while i do not wana spoilt my outing.At the end we kinda argued saying that since i (lynette lim) dying to wana see him why didn't say wana meet him now????I was speechless..Finally we met up in front of cinema and is was very quick catch up. Then he told me that he was alone with no friends with him. So i was really blank and speechless and my anger was raising so i just kept quiet and talk to him. at the end he ask me to "TAKE CARE". I was hmm..bye..

It was not a good catch up after all but then i was a little glad to get to see him. I cared for him so much and i even had feelings for him before but i control not to have feelings for him because he is my one of my family member and i really wana tell him that..but looking through the years i felt that is not worth it. so i kept it to myself. in the end i only cared for him not only as a friend but i treat him as one of my closest family member. The bond between us is really really complicated. I am putting the effort to keep the relationship close but then he just threw it back to my face.

p/s: to him....this is the explanation i owe u and i wana tell u but i think is not worth telling you at your face. i am really dissapointed of what u are doing this to me as i know peopl out there will think i am stupid to still keep that relationship. the friendship and the family bondness. but i still have the hope that someday you appreciate the bondness.

To Sameer i am gonna miss u so much and u will remember me with those baby clothings...hope to have another outing with u and ali again...hope to see u around in malaysia.have a safe journey back.

I just....

finish my dinner which is just maggie mee and roasted chicken where mom cook for me and brought all the way from seremban. I had my FIRST Final Exam at 4pm till 7pm which is Malaysian Studies...

About the paper it was such a dissapointment because i did my studies but the questions are not what i expected..Some of the questions are not even taught and i just what i can do...Hopefully i could pass JUST PASS the paper..tats good enough for me.

Another scaring part is about to get sick because of the rain that i had ' played' yesterday (Friday). My room mate is currently sick now and i am afraid it will spead to me. 'Playing' under rain is kinda fun if u were to think about it again but is just wronf timing. Is been ages since i last 'played' under the rain...

About the exam...hmm..kinda ok but not the paper..i was sitting at the back of the hall and doing my exam..so s usual i will 'scan' around the hall to see how many students are out from the hall early. Then my Moral lecturer caught me 'scanning' and he asked a question, YES????. so all i could do is just shake my head and stop my scanning. And then my lec took one round of walk and he came to my place and STARE at my paper..and i was checking my answers and he kept on STARRING...in my heart i was like SHIT...Go AWAY..and there he is stading beside me and starring at my paper for like 5 MINUTES...haiz...but no worries..i din do anything wrong at all..haha..and there he goes another round and i was praying not for the paper but him..i was praying so hard so tat he would not detour to my table again..haha..

MR STEVEN===> also known MR BEAN but he is a very nice lecturer..he would teach MORAL subject in a fun way where u will not wana miss his class or even sleep in class..his jokes are damn hilarious..and we would remember his words which is FEELING (say it in a hongky way).

is already 9smt and i m not even bath yet and yet to be blogging here..i m suppose to be studying my finance now..hehe..

anyway i m abit of stresss and i m kinda missing peoples tat i love very much..just wana say i miss u gals..

adios.

1st study

I finally had my really sit down study..Woke up quite early today but was kinda late becz i am suppose to wake up at 7.30am but unfortunately i did not hear my alarm clock and i ws dead tire. Luckily Clare woke me up to head to the open air common room to study. So i wash up, pack my stuffs, pack breakfast and head to the place. So my head phone ws ready and my hp is also ready. I plugged in the head phones listening to the radio on my hp. I started studying at 9 am till 12 pm with the music playing in my ears. Without it i would not really sit down study. So at 12pm had lunch and i was super hungry and my lunch came to RM 4.50. So what the heck..I AM HUNGRY. I even skip class just to finish up my. Continue studying till i was so sleepy and i slept off in the air condition common room.*opps*. Is was just a really short nap and waa laa i am wide awake. Head phone still stuck in my head with the music in my ears. Again without it i would not be able to concentrate at all. We finish study at 6pm and i am already half dead. I just need to lie down and rest.

hopefully the notes would be able to stay in my head till FINALS.

Sad and Unbelievable

i am wondering which one to write 1st??the sad one or the unbelievable??well i would start the unbelievable la..

last friday i came back together with 2 of my friends to seremban and my friends came to my house. as i reach home, u started to unpack some of my stuffs and pack some of my stuffs to go out to senawang. so to go out i do need transportation. so is either my mom or my fren drive but since my mom is kinda bz she stayed home and now left my friend to drive. in the end mom gave me the key and i drove. 1st destination is to the optical shop near my house. so i drove there safe and sound. after spending few minuted there, i thought my friend would drive my car to senawang but she dare not. so is all up to me. and taa daa i drove all the way to senawang to my another uni friends house. the journey to senawang was ok but just a little honk here and there by other drivers..*opps*..hehe..it is a scary moment to drive without your parents but yur friends. usually parents would be like ' okay look out for the car on the opposite road when u wana turn in the junction" " look out for the car when u wana cut in lane" i was scare wen i did that and so the honk shouted at me* tension*. drove all the way to taman senawang jaya but then took 2 wrong turns. *opps*. called my friend on the phone and waa laa we are on the right track. so reach there and park the car which i had to come out through the passenger seat..hehe.. (don worry nothing happen to the car) just that i park too near the wall till i could not come out from my side.hehe. after seated i drank the whole cup of water and relieve cz we are safe in one piece.

the sad part is that my friend's mom pass away and i went to visit her to give her moral support. loosing a mom is no joke but this is testses from the above. she is kinda ok at 1st but then she broke down in tears during the funeral. we sat there chit chatting about her mom, joking around about lecturers in uni, eating junk food and finally we have to bid good bye. telling her our supporting words i drove off to head back home.

nearly knock down a motorcyclist which he is not looking at my CAR and looking at GOD knows where is he looking at. i manage to stop but cursing him inside the car. so continued back and i was suddenly OH MY GOSH.. TRAFFIC JAM.. HOW HOW???? i panic. i pray hard so that nothing happen and focus but then other drivers are TAKING ADVANTAGE of me by cutting que. tsk.....*grumbles*. then i saw road block and i got more panic. luckily my friends told me to cool down and just drive..*phew* nothing happen and finally home sweet home.

p/s: 1st time driving without my parents but friends..ai ya..i didn't know i have the guts. kaka..

i can do it so u can to those who are scare to drive. hehe.

Weekends

Left INTI - UC on friday at 6pm..i was doing my assignment which is due on monday (23/4) from 2 pm till 6pm and then waited for the INTI bus to KTM. to my surprise there are darn lot of INTIans going to pasar malam and ktm. The most funniest thing i found about INTI bus drivers is that they drive a small bus to fit like 45 people in it. All of us are squarsh like a sandwhich ready to be eaten. After sending off students to the night market finally there are ample sits to be seated and i was left alone with the other people to ktm. So as I was filling up my boredness and loneliness i start to plug in my headphones and listen to musics.

Board the train at like 7smt and mom kept on calling to ask me where am i...well she is concern that her little girl might sesat or kena culik or wat...hehe..(melebih only)..so bout 7 to 8 i reach home sweet home and starting to fill my noisy stomach.Darn HUNGRY till i ate a BIG donnut bought from pasar malam after eating chicken. fish, and vege with one big plate of rice. bath and rest and felt hungry again, i just fell asleep becz of tireness.But at the end woke up at 3am and start tossing here n der till i slept back.

the next day..feeling so happy to be able to go back Muar(mom place) to relax..journey took about 2 hours cz we stop by MELACCA to go to the holly place and the food paradise.hehe..(well i got burn from a burning ashes at my neck and i din feel a thing)..hehe..

stuffing in the "konlo mee" which is too oily..bluek..and then continue my journey to Muar..to my surprise after reaching Muar, i saw my nieces and nephew..is been really long to see them again.

CARMEN MAH KAH YEE

She is already 5 years old and the last i saw her she was only 4 years old. She is darn pretty with her big eyes and cuteness attitude. All she ever love is talking about all the DISNEY PRINCESSES and she want to be like them someday..haha..well she is just a small gal. comparing from the last time i saw she is very shy but now she is very talkative. she is hardworking and she is just a KINDERGARDEN gal..just love her..

BRANDON MAH KAH KIT

i am calling him PROFFESOR MAH KAH KIT..he has started wearing spectacles at the age of 9 YEARS OLD..he has put on a lot of weight and he has a tough skin. He is famous with his mischievious attitude where he loves to kicj people wheneve he starts to play. he sturborness is darn high where you could just wana wack him..but then he is just a little boy with his attitude. one thing i love to see him is that he loves his younger cousin sis whom is just 1+.he is so darn caring..haha..overall i just loves him.

SOH XIN FEI

there are so many things to talk about this cute little 1+ gal man. i fell in luv with her when the day she was born. from the bouncer and now she is running around the house freely without any fear. she jas learn many BABY LANGUAGE whenever she back to MUAR. TOTO(dog name), eth eth(dirty), mum mum( eating), mama and papa, gor gor(brother)...she is just loving and she would let ANYONE to carry her around as long you have to bring her go kai kai(jalan jalan). she is skinny due to her eating habits but she is HEALTHY..haha..cant wait to see her grow up bigger.

my weekends just end uo going back seremban feeling the miss towards my nephew and nieces. they are just adorable to see them play around and their cuteness..cant wait to see them again.

till then, adios.

Sleepless

For this whole month of March i have been having sleepless night.

Wonder why????

This semester i had to take 6 subjects. I thought that it would be quite easy to cope with it. but UNFORTUNATELY, i had 7 ASSIGNMENTS to be done in MARCH. For all this assignments i could sit infront of my computer for loooong hours without walking anywhere. I could even forgot about testses. But luckily i could scrap thru ( I hope so). every night i would tose here and there to be able to get some sleep but unfortunately i could get only few hours of sleep as i get to sleep the next morning and have to get up like 7am to get ready for class..

At the end i would end up looking like a zombie panda.haha. looking forward to next month as i

could rest more.